My hair is falling out at an alarming rate! The amount that comes out when I wash and brush my hair freaks the fuck out of me. I’m terrified that I’ll lose most of my hair.  If that happens, I’m just going to fucking shave my head.  I always wondered what I would look like…I could be like Sinead O’Connor and get a tattoo on my bald head.  That would be cool as fuck.  LOL

So, I totally broke my rule in regards to weighing myself and used a scale for the first time in about 5 years.  Since July 1st, I’ve lost 40lbs.  I can’t help but feel it should be more and I shouldn’t be eating as much as I do. I eat between 600 – 700 calories a day and there are times I still feel hungry but I power through and keep myself from eating. Today I’ve eaten a cheese stick and part of an Oscar Mayer Protein Pack.  It seems like so much.  After realizing what I just read, I can completely see how fucked up and obsessive  my thinking is when it comes to eating and body image.  I’ve got 40 years of ridicule because of my weight and looks to undue.  I suppose it won’t come easy.

This song is dedicated to all the men with whom I have had a romantic relationship. 

There’s only 11 days until the Foo Fighters concert and 13 until Incubus.  I’m so fucking excited.  FF always put on a good show.  I suspect I won’t be able to talk for a few days and then after Incubus, my voice will be even worse.  Maybe I should be responsible and pay attention to how much I scream, nah!  One of the highlights will be not being left there by some psycho husband who gets jealous of a rock star who I will probably never meet.  I’m so glad I’m done with that shit.