When I got back from Seattle, Jenna, Joe, and I are walking to Safeway and I’m telling them what happened.

I tell them, “we had sex”. And I guess the way I said it made Jenna think I was upset about it because she turns to me, puts her hand on my shoulder and says, “it’s ok Mellony, you’re not a Christian.”

I appreciate that you want to develop other partners, but I was there at your last meeting with Rachael, you need to focus on your own development. If you want to be where I am, you need to get your shit together.

When Cassandra has an issue with your closes, don’t fucking blame everything else. Own it! Don’t make excuses. You’re the person in charge. I manage to get it all done. You can too.

She really helped shed some light on my dilemma and she gave me what she called “big sister” advice. I’m so appreciative of her.

She ended our conversation by saying I have such a mellow, smooth, soothing voice. What is it about my fucking voice that people comment on it out of the blue? I don’t get it. 🤷‍♀️

If only they had it at karaoke.

Pineapple upside down beer…

I want another beer but I can’t sleep on the patio!

“Omg, I got drunk with Mellony” says Liv

Liv had to take me to get food, but the bartender told me I was cute so I wasn’t that bad.

2 drunk bitches

“Hey can’t talk long. Just getting Chinese and wanted to hear your voice.” 🤷‍♀️🤔

He told me what he ordered, that they got the order wrong, and then said he had to go.

and somehow he found out I like bunnies because he’s been sending me pics of them…🤷‍♀️

Dave came in and gave me a 5 minute hug. The best hug I’ve gotten all month! I miss you so much Dave!

Why the fuck did you move to New Hampshire? You were my fave manager!

Bummer

Vince, thanks for my dose of reality. I needed someone to just hit me over the head with some truth. You’re right. Never has a person been more right!! This is why you’re my best friend.

And thanks for making me laugh when I told you how weird it is for strange men to ask me if they can help me. “You mean you’re finally getting a normal level of attention you deserve from men and don’t know what to do with it? 😂”

Its a very low day for me. I miss my little girls so very much. I thought getting almost 12 hours of sleep would help. But yeah, not so much.

I went to bed at 7:30 or 8. Got woken up by Joey and Jason messaging me and the same time asking if I’m all right. I think I fell back to sleep around midnight and was up at 6:30. I could sleep another 12 hours…

When I got home last night, I was so exhausted. I was on the verge of tears and just wanted a hug, to snuggle, and someone to stroke my hair.

So I need to find some happy things to do today or something to distract me. I close tonight so that’s not improving my mood.

I took Connor back to Tennessee last night. On my way back to Missouri, I only cried for the first hour. So that’s good.

I was on my way to the Paducah Kentucky Starbucks when I got a flat tire.

Called a tow truck, and had my tire fixed within an hour and a half, probably sooner. And yes, I can change the oil in my car but not the tire. It’s stupid, I know.

I made a joke about it on Facebook and had 2 guys message me to see if they could help and one guy sent me a pic of his certified tire repairman certificate. Wtf?! Am I living in some sort of alternate reality?

I blocked a guy too…you know nothing!!!

And this bird just flew in my car and landed on me!