Now if Starbucks closes, I’ll have a back up!

I just deactivated my facebook account

I’m fucking terrified!

😡😡😡

I don’t know what to do. I don’t even have a dr so I have awhile to think about it.

Parts of me want to be happy again, to feel again, to not be so stressed, and to actually have a quiet mind.

I can’t do it though if it will make me gain weight. I’m already feeling like I did at 300 pounds and I’ve only gained 20 since October. I’m struggling with horrible body dysmorphia. I can pretty much wear all my same clothes, they’re tighter, but they all still fit. I literally feel like one of those fat people you see in Walmart riding the motorized carts. I can’t even look at myself in the mirror

It’s amazing how the ability to understand hyperbole has completely died a painful death

And already blocked 3 people…good day

I’m leaving fashbook for awhile

And telling him I was worried because if it tanks, I’m here all by myself. Before I could always go live with my dad, but here it’s all on me.

He said not to worry because, “You’re Mellony. You’re motherfucking Mellony” 😂😂😂😂😂😂

He’s such a sweet kid. He moved here in July from Seattle!