EVERY ounce of respect I had for him is gone out the window.

Sean keeps wanting to go out, and I keep telling him no. I’m just not interested. With the experiences I’ve had with men the past year, I’m just not sure I’m up for trusting anyone. And he has so many red flags. You just can’t trust guys.

Not to worry, I’ve got two jobs lined up already!

I’m looking into getting my real estate license since I want to start flipping houses within the next 3 years.

I’m not going to get what I want when my life is partially dictated by the whims of others.

Why didn’t I do this sooner?

Now if Starbucks closes, I’ll have a back up!

I just deactivated my facebook account

I’m fucking terrified!

😡😡😡

I don’t know what to do. I don’t even have a dr so I have awhile to think about it.

Parts of me want to be happy again, to feel again, to not be so stressed, and to actually have a quiet mind.

I can’t do it though if it will make me gain weight. I’m already feeling like I did at 300 pounds and I’ve only gained 20 since October. I’m struggling with horrible body dysmorphia. I can pretty much wear all my same clothes, they’re tighter, but they all still fit. I literally feel like one of those fat people you see in Walmart riding the motorized carts. I can’t even look at myself in the mirror