today was the first day in months that I listened to music for an extended period of time. It was a good day

Damn, that man is so nice to me! He thinks way too highly of me.

Kris and I started talking about sex. Not with each other, but just about general shit. I’m kinda uncomfortable with it. I just don’t want it to get out of hand. Or I should say, I don’t want him to think there’s anything more than just friends. I don’t even want friends with benefits with him. I just can’t go there with him. It’ll ruin our friendship.

I’m just sooo stupid!

And making a huge post

What is going through that mans mind…??? I’m truly saddened.

I told him how stupid I feel for messaging people I haven’t talked to in months to make sure they’re ok. I told him how weak it made me feel. I mean, obviously these people couldn’t give two shits about me, but here I am concerned that people are ok. These are the kinds of things I do that are stupid. Why even care about people who don’t care about me?

He’s such a nice guy though. He told me that it’s because I’m a good person and that I’m not in any way weak. He said I’m strong and everyone knows it. Which is funny, because he’s the 3rd person in a week to tell me that. 😂😂😂 If only they knew the real me…

He also told me we should meet sooner rather than later, because I’m one of the only sane ones left. Lolol I told him we should use our trump dollars! Lololol

Never in a million years would I have thought it would come to this. I just can’t take his downward spiral into complete and total statism.

Kris and I had a great conversation today about our wanting to care about having a relationship, but just not thinking it’s worth it. I’m glad he understands.

I’m so done with Vince.

Jason is such a sweet heart! I love that man!

Betsie and I decided we’re twins that were separated at birth. Lol