I did laundry, dishes, unpacked some more clothes, walked to Starbucks, and played basketball with Ben at the park.

I’m trying not to smoke…

Must be because I’m back here…idk but I’d like them to stop.

So, N and I have decided to not continue or romantic relationship and just stay friends. He doesn’t plan on moving up here and I’m certainly not leaving. Hopefully he won’t be like R and just disappear. I doubt he will though. He still texts me good morning and good night and we’ve video chatted and talked on the phone. All in the short 2 days I’ve been here. I know as time goes by communication will decrease, hell find someone and maybe I will too.

And I only smoked 2 cigarettes since I’ve been here.

But I think things are going to be ok.

Thai and Mexican

He’s pretty excited and acting really silly.

I shipped everything to myself

Got our boarding passes

Paid for our checked baggage

Thankfully I don’t have to make any trips to goodwill

I fucking pulled it together somehow…

Joey said, “you’re a fucking amazing woman!”

The agony of the hundreds of messages was worth it!