I love over thinking. Wtf?

I’ll probably end up deleting most of this…

Today is my moms 77th birthday. And no matter what i do, my phone says, “call mom. Birthday found in contacts.” Feeling really down and now the stupid overthinking will make me feel insecure all day!

😡😡😡😡😡😡

I woke up and my whole body felt like jello, that lovely feeling of impending doom and anxiety…I really wish I had someone to tell all this to. It’s days like today I wish I was still taking medication. 100 Xanax sound good right about now. I know this will pass and I’ll feel better later today, tomorrow, or in a few days, but it’s just riding this out in the moment is hard.

Yeah, this is definitely getting deleted

Anxiety level today…can’t listen to music, eat, and definitely won’t be drinking coffee

my scale says I’m back to my pre vacation weight but my pants tell me something different…grrr

Liv and Nicole keep asking me if he’s going to ask me to be his girl friend…Jason keeps asking me. Guys, do adults even ask each other to be boyfriend/girlfriend??? I don’t know the answer to either question we’ll just have to wait and see what the cards have in store…