And that if I sent them that video, they would be smiling ear to ear.
That’s a good start to the day.
Vince, you’ve been my friend since 2012 when we met on Tumblr. You stuck around through my darkest points and the Shane debacle. You deserve a Medal of Honor. I’m so glad you’re on the mend from your cancer and everything is going well with your marriage. You truly deserve all the happiness in the world.
You’ve got have something better to do with your time. 😉😉😉
Well, it’s 100% official. I’m going back to Portland September 20-27. I’m planning on staying at least 3 days in Washington because there’s 3 different places I want to visit there. I’ll have to find a place to stay…
Liv is my fave person to work with. I was daydreaming all day, and every time she caught me she’d say, “Mellony, get out of your head.”
She frustrates me because she gives me hope about certain things in my life. I don’t want hope, that always ends bad.
I’m talking to my District Manager regarding transferring to a store in the Pacific Northwest. I want to be out of this place by the end of next summer, if not sooner.
I didn’t sleep well last night…
Snoqualmie Falls
Deception Pass
Cape Disappointment State Park
I’ll need at least 3 days in Washington. I’ll have to find a place to stay.
Apply for that job
Date that person
Buy that plane ticket
Move to that city
Do all the things that scare you, because they’re worth it…
So so bad
I love over thinking. Wtf?
I’ll probably end up deleting most of this…
Today is my moms 77th birthday. And no matter what i do, my phone says, “call mom. Birthday found in contacts.” Feeling really down and now the stupid overthinking will make me feel insecure all day!
😡😡😡😡😡😡
I woke up and my whole body felt like jello, that lovely feeling of impending doom and anxiety…I really wish I had someone to tell all this to. It’s days like today I wish I was still taking medication. 100 Xanax sound good right about now. I know this will pass and I’ll feel better later today, tomorrow, or in a few days, but it’s just riding this out in the moment is hard.
Yeah, this is definitely getting deleted
Anxiety level today…can’t listen to music, eat, and definitely won’t be drinking coffee
my scale says I’m back to my pre vacation weight but my pants tell me something different…grrr
Liv and Nicole keep asking me if he’s going to ask me to be his girl friend…Jason keeps asking me. Guys, do adults even ask each other to be boyfriend/girlfriend??? I don’t know the answer to either question we’ll just have to wait and see what the cards have in store…
I feel overwhelmed and out of my element. I’m constantly having to coach these people on basic shit and I can’t get my stuff finished.
I checked with Uhaul and it costs almost $2000 to rent a truck to move myself. Then you have to figure in gas and hotels. I don’t think it’s worth the hassle. When I finally move, I’ll probably just fly, if I decide to not take my car. My dad is trying to give me his…I don’t feel right taking it. It’s too nice. When I finally have his car, I’ll have to drive it there…ugh! Oh well, I’ve got almost a year to figure this shit out.
And, I’m constantly thinking of ways to get out of Springfield sooner…
It’s only $2744 for a month rental and shipping! WTF? That’s so damned cheap! I was thinking at least $5000. But I am taking the bare minimum, my bed, books, pictures, and a few household things. I really don’t need much.
I do need to find a dr, but I’ll have to see when I get there because I’m sure insurance carriers will be different. Hmm…
All of this hinges on what Starbucks I’ll end up at. I hate uncertainty. Why can’t I have a crystal ball and see the future?! That would just make my life so much easier.
I missed my bus. I texted Jenna and Joe. Joe immediately said, we’re going to get her. And apparently I was answering Jenna’s questions in one word responses so she started getting worried and started asking me questions like, “who was our second grade teacher?” and “what grade school did we go to?”
It’s nice having friends that care…
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