Actually trust him…maybe.

These titties cute until I take this bra off and these mf’s drop like an album

I’m much too amused by it.

What do I need to do?

Save money

Once I have a location, find a place to live

Downsize EVERYTHING

Make sure Dawson is set up if he’s not coming with me

I want to be outta here by the end of next summer…2020 is my year.

I’ve talked to my kids and their dad.

As soon as I’m finished with my IPLD program, I’m going to start applying for ASM positions in Oregon and Washington.

Why aren’t they good enough the way they are??? And they never seem to have a problem finding a guy.

More to come

I’m starting EMDR with my counselor. It’s suppose to help with dealing with traumatic events without having to relive them by talking about them. I can’t even say them out loud. I just want to get rid of these pesky negative thoughts.

Most relevant song lyric relating to my life right now: my problem is you make me melt and I don’t want to be frozen anymore.

oh and I got fitted for a bra today. I used to wear a 48DDD, now I wear a 34DDD wtf? I NEVER thought I’d wear a 34!

It helps with my anxiety and keeping weight off. I’m just wondering if it’s me running away from dealing with something, or if I’m just over thinking everything like usual.

I think it has to do with my anxiety and me never feeling safe.

Most women want a provider, I just want someone who makes me feel safe.