Be forewarned, the following entry is boring.

I’m so fucking tired today. I was up way too late last night.  

I’ve heard that the charges are going be dropped.  That’s complete and utter bullshit.  There’s been so much suffering for nothing now.  

I have not been taking care of myself lately.  My diet is for shit.  I’m not eating enough protein and eating too much junk food.  I’ve got to get it together.  I’m so terrified of gaining weight and sometimes I won’t eat anything all day.  The other day I ate some candy and I tried to make myself throw up.  Clearly, I’m having issues.  

I’ve been on a leave from work and have to go back tomorrow.  While I am looking forward to seeing my friends, I’m not looking forward to dealing with fucking idiots all day.  If only I could find a way to be a stay at home mom again…although, that would get boring. 

I desperately want to go up to Chicago again this year.  I don’t care how or what I do up there, I’m finding a way to go.  Sufjan will be up there in July, if I can figure out what day he’ll be at the festival I might go. I just want to sit on the beach and listen to the waves crash against the shore. I love Lake Michigan, some of my best childhood memories are from when I was in Chicago with my cousins.  I’d love to go with someone to show them all the amazing places…

I still don’t have everything unpacked.  It’s been over a month and I’m still missing some things.  The funny thing is that at least 25% of the garage is holiday decorations.