Yesterday was our last session until October, I’m kinda bummed about that, but I’ll survive.  We click so well, and I feel like she understands what I’m talking about.  

Anyway, we were talking about past relationships and how toxic they were for me. It felt good to get a lot of stuff off my chest.  

We spent a lot of time talking about body dysmorphia disorder.  She makes me start every session by looking in the mirror and saying 3 nice things about myself.  It seems easy enough…but not for me.  I find it impossible to look at myself in the mirror.  I always look to the left or cover my eyes.  I have no idea why I do that.  I just can’t face myself in the mirror.  It’s pretty much an exercise in futility to try to say anything nice about myself.  Yesterday, I picked my skinny ankles, straight teeth, and blue eyes.  

This is how I see myself…

  
People tell me it’s not true, but I don’t fucking believe them.  I’ll add a pic to this post showing you how disgusting I look.