I absolutely love her.  We get along so well.  We talked about a relationship I had.  It was so nice to get things off my chest, to really express all my feelings instead of cutting to get them out.  She said he probably stays friends with me because he gets something from me that he doesn’t get at home.  But it sucks for me because he goes home to his family and lives his life while I wait for any scrap of attention he throws my way.  The pull me in then let me go gets frustrating and whenever I talk to him about this shit, he gets really defensive.  It’s just not worth it.