February | 2015 | novacaineforthesoul

People have said to me on several occasions regarding different situations, “I can’t plan that far ahead because I don’t know what will happen between now and then”.

Unless I’m mistaken, plans are something you make so you have some idea of what’s going to happen in the future. People, however, like to complicate things and let life dictate their future instead of making their own future. If you want something, go for it. Yeah, there will be bumps, turns, and twists in the road, and it may not happen as soon as you want or exactly the way you want it to, but that’s when you make adjustments.

My plans include moving out of the country, I’ve wanted to do that for as long as I can remember. Where? I’m not exactly sure yet, but that’s not going to stop me from preparing to move.

I want to move into a small, self-sustaining shipping container home or something similar. In a world of excess and greed, I feel like it is my duty to live as simply as possible. Every single one of us survive at the expense of other living things and it is my goal to make mine as tiny as possible. More selfishly, I want to be able to have as little debt and financial responsibility as possible. That will allow me more money to do what I want.

I want so much to resurrect my love of photography. I love art, especially painting, photography and music. So many emotions can be conveyed through one single picture or song. So many emotions that I have no idea how to express. I can look at a picture or hear a song though and say, that is how I feel. I might not have a word that describes it, but that image, lyric, or music describes it perfectly.

After I married Doug, I stopped almost completely taking pics. It’s something I feel bad about. I missed so many opportunities. I am in no way close to being considered a professional. And I’m sure no one would pay for my pictures, but I enjoy it and I guess that’s all that matters.

Anyway, where I’m going with this is that I want to hike unbeaten paths ( I’m such a klutz though that I’d probably end up falling off the side of a mountain) and go on camping trips to take pictures of amazing scenery and abandoned buildings.

The problem with my life is that up until this point I never really knew what I wanted I’ve just been letting life make my life what it is instead of me making my life what I wanted.

I need to find someone who wants similar things. Can you imagine how awesome it would be to be with someone who’s working towards the same goal? How much closer you would feel to that person and the connection you would create? It would be amazing.

And Be My Honeypie by the Weepies will be our song.