I need to take a step back and reevaluate my relationships, all of them.

The one I need to work on the most is with S. We agreed to be just friends and that’s good, but it’s too hard for me to just shut off feelings. It seems like it’s so easy for him. We still talk every day but sometimes I feel like I’m just his cheerleader. When he forgets about important events, I get hurt. I just need to think about things.

I could just be saying this because I’m in the pits of despair right now too…