Today was the last time I got to see Justin. I’m pretty bummed about it. I really liked him and I thought we worked well together.

It was a really good session. We talked a lot about my feelings about myself and my inability to commit to things for fear of either being abandoned or wrong. At the end of the session, he told me that he really enjoyed working with me and my personality and whit made the hour go by fast.

Overcoming challenges together is what makes relationships extraordinary!

I wish it was snow!

But if it can’t be snow, the 2nd best thing would be to be in a tent with someone I love. We could just lay around, hold hands, and stare at the ceiling listening to the soothing sound of the rain drops hitting the top of the tent.

I’m crying again…

Growing up, I never got birthday or xmas presents unless a relative bought me one. As an adult, that pretty much still rings true, except the adorable crafts that my younger kids make in school, which frankly are the best Xmas presents of all.

If, by chance, I ever am in a relationship again, I don’t want material gifts. I want romantic gestures, picnics under the stars, and cute impromptu camping trips. Those are the gifts that matter. Those are the type of gifts that create amazing memories that can never be lost or stolen. They stay with you forever…

…check up on me to make sure I’m taking my meds and if I need him to, will go pick them up for me. Please?

1. Someone who remembers the little things that go on in my life, like dr appts, and asks me how they went.

2. Someone who goes out of their way to make me feel special and wanted

3. Someone who expresses their feelings for me openly

4. Someone who can’t wait to tell me about their day or just even talk to me

5. Someone who, when I express a need, doesn’t automatically make it about their needs

“You need someone who goes out of their way to make it obvious that they want you in their life.”